It can only get better right?

I knew it all along, i knew something was wrong, but i guess like you i wanted to believe that it was not true. I told myself if again i should drop everything but something tells me that it is gona be worth all the trouble, the pain, the heart becoming broken. I only hope that the choice i made will not haunt me later, you say i am like the rest but how come i am trying to become better and yet you did not see that. I know i am not perfect but at least i know where i stand i see now that i have finally hit rock bottom and the only way is up so it can only get better right?

California

Ok im back, im back and im happy but a little cold haha well the weather is any way i officially got back yesterday late afternoon. The first person i saw when i got back was the only one that matters besides my family but beyond the point im hella glad she was the one who picked me up and no one else i missed her everyday i was gone. I had no one but white people no offense to anyone it was just to feel like i was part of the crowd so to speak. Thats it for now i gotta a little sister's promotion to go to oh and one more thing there was something i forgot to put on that postcard i love you more than i did yesterday and if tomorrow you became my wife i would be the luckest guy and nothing would matter im glad you were the first person i saw when i got back here.....in California