Its Funny

Its funny i know i won't forget you, i know what i did you won't ever forget and maybe in some ways this is the only way. i can't tell you how many times im sorry and i know those words are false and hollow but i guess........ what is done and it is over. i look back and think to my self that you were too good for me and i am idiot for trying to keep you to myself. I guess i thought i....maybe....no never mind. all i know is that i have to start all over and its gona fucking suck but its the only way for me i just wish i could have been better and i hate myself for letting this get this far and ended the way it did. Your tone the way we talked it tells me that you dont regret you choice and you can stop youself....... but i guess you wanted to me to feel as much pain as i did to you. i know i desreve it i just hope and prey that i can be forgiven for what i know i should have done a long time ago. funny im done crying

Bittersweet

I know what i did was wrong by all measures.....you know how people say a bittersweet victory is a bad one i think a bittersweet lose is worst thats all i have in my mouth a taste i can not wash down with anything i drink but i hope one day i can taste again.